When I was younger I used to feel so accomplished because I would clean my room and bathroom without being asked or I would make dinner for the whole family and it wouldn’t only be edible but it would be delicious. The one thing I do know however is that I’ve officially hit adult hood when I not only cleaned my fridge, but I also found myself cleaning my microwave. I don’t know how to feel about it because in my head I’ve officially become my mother. It’s one thing making your child’s doctor’s appointments because you don’t have to call in to schedule those, you can do them at an office, but when you call and make your own appointment it’s like the light has been shined on you and you can see your childhood falling away.
It all seems to come so fast. One day you’re sitting at home watching cartoons and next you’re staring at a positive pregnancy test, then adult hood just starts coming at you full force. Bills, doctors, work, it all seems to be overwhelming at times. You just sit there thinking about where your childhood went and how it slipped away so fast. I wish I could go back to the days where life was easy and my parents did everything for me but all I can remember is how when I was younger and all I wanted was to grow up and be 21 years old so I could legal drink and now I miss being 16 and getting money from my parents to go see the new Twilight movie.
But I can say I am proud of how far I’ve come and I’m proud of the accomplishments I’ve made, but I can never stop growing and doing the best I can but if anything I can’t lie and say adulting doesn’t scare me cause it does. There is so much that I want to give my baby in this world and I’m hoping I just do a good job at it.